Looking for my Worth on the Highway

Trakiya highway in Bulgaria
Sitting at the window sill overlooking the NH4 highway… There’s a road that joins the two important cities. I wonder if there’s any path that joins two hearts. Two stranded hearts one of which is sinking with no hope and the other misguided with… It is a difficult phase that tears you apart when you are helpless and know there’s nothing to look forward to. The failure of a pure love and a trust that comes with a bond. Depression and nothing else becomes your companion.

The feeling of morose is so overwhelming that you turn blind towards your achievements and forget the worth you have. No amount of consoling words help you when someone repeatedly betrays your trust and punishes you for sins you don’t even know you have committed. The achievements and accolades of years fade in front of the grief of being abandoned. I like my solitude but feel lonely. I followed my principles and many a times bent too to save the disaster. Isn’t it heart wrenching when people don’t understand the difference between ego and self respect?

The number of males is more in my country than females. I also know that there fewer men who stand up for themselves if not for the right. I wish I too had a support when injustice had captured me in those four walls. I kept waiting for him to come and there wasn’t even a phone call. I kept my faith. A firm belief that he hadn’t earned. May be that’s where I was wrong but am happy I fulfilled my part of the promise. I never went out of communication. I tried and kept trying but as they say poison is stronger than any emotional string… The path between the two hearts were broken and poisoned beyond measure.

The highway is always busy but the two ends remain the same. The two cities that it connects are there to complete the journey. But I am lost and wish no one loses their path that connects their heart to that one person for whom you can sacrifice anything. Let me get up and find my worth. It has lost somewhere on the highway. An accident that cannot repair the damage it caused.


4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Timothy Price
    Apr 01, 2015 @ 19:31:41

    You have a hard battle to fight in a male dominated environment. Believe in yourself, and as long as you know that person you are and the work you have accomplish are worthwhile, you can continue to push forward.

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    • Torque Earnest
      Apr 01, 2015 @ 20:15:01

      Thank you for reading Tim Sir. Sometimes it is so tiring to be strong & keep striving to be on a principled path. But what I have learnt is that I have to incorporate some diplomacy and let go of certain things.

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    Apr 01, 2015 @ 11:40:49

    बदल जाए अगर माली

    चमन होता नही ख़ाली

    बहारें फिर भी आती हैं

    बहारें फिर भी आएंगी

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